The 13th Struggle

If there’s anything remotely to be depressed about now
Is that I’m still trying
Trying very hard.
Probably the hardest in my life

So much that I’m starting to build up an emotional baggage
Which I’m refusing to let go
I kept thinking about what he said
About being selfish
Giving other people your burden
I kinda get it now
Words that spill from my lips
Might do so much harm to another.
I’m not going to cause the same hurt that they caused her

I need to repeat this to myself
Not everybody will give you the credit you deserve
Sometimes you get ridiculed as a model for a learning process

I’m still trying.
Still holding it together

It’s not going to be easy
But it’s better than having to not try anything at all
I’m not a genius nor do I have a brilliant memory
Sorry if I failed as friend.

Don’t mistake timidness for arrogance


A week, a struggle
Another week, another struggle
How can I show that I’m doing my best
Don’t shame me and make feel that I’m not working hard enough

It’s getting hard to turn to people.
Cuz this is mine alone, I guess

Can I cry anymore?